Just me and myself in my own world

For you

2011-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

Dear MHM,
First of all I wanna say that I'm very sorry for what happens, I am so sorry I didn't mean to hurt your feeling, I didn't mean to break your heart, I really sorry. I'm confused, I dont know what exactly you want from me my dear, you knew that I'm not your lover anymore right? But why you still act like you're my lover? I know that you love me and I know how much you love you but even though you still love me you can't treat me like this, I know that you are afraid that that you're gonna losing me, I know because I can see it in your eyes, you dont worry you are not gonna losing me because I will always be with you no matter what happen, and I will always love you because I'm still your friend dear or maybe one day we get back together, who knows right? If you have any problem can sure you share with me, dont worry okay? I hope you understand and realize after you read this, you're handsome and nice boy, you can get someone better than me, someone who can take a good care of you, someone who can be with you 24/7, someone who can hear your voice when you're sing, someone who can touch your face, someone who can make you feel loved, someone who can kiss your forehead, someone who can give you chocolate, someone who can see you every evening, someone who can hug you when you cold and someone who can make you sleep very soundly. YOU JUST DONT WORRY, I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN, I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER THAT!

Classmates

2011-09-14T06:15:00.000-07:00

Hey, at last boleh tunjuk kat korang my classmates,I had so much fun with all my buddy, this year mcm more fun lah kalau nak compare to last year or last two years. Tapi macam tak best lah kan if gado haih okay I think thats all.

Sweet sunday

2011-08-21T07:52:00.000-07:00

There's nothing interesting actually haha but I just feel like wanna write something. Maybe about my life on sunday, what's going on, what's happening. Ya everything, okay first of all, I wanna tell you guys that just now I just met with my ex, ya my friend, my close friend and maybe one day can be my lover HEHE XD A a day without you is nothing haha konon such a sweet talker but that's the fact I think, I just don't like to show what I really am. But I'm not like so jiwang jiwang I'm not okay, I'm not gonna cry for stupid man, ya might one day I will but we don't know when. Okaylah not maybe but sure I will cry for someone, ya someone we love <3! The one who we love the most sure we will cry if they'll leave us right.

Tonight

2011-08-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

Tonight I will love, love you tonight. Give me everything tonight, for all we know we might not get tomorrow lets do it tonight. Forget what they say, I want you to stay, I want you tonight. Grab somebody sexy, tell em hey. HAHA but that's not what I wanna tell you guys actually, I am so bored right now, I don't have any idea what to do. Blurrr after I met with my boyfriend, my close friend. I do love him as a friend and maybe more than that haha but I'm confused. I need all my friends, I miss them. I miss our moment, actually I don't have so many friends like you guys do, hmm I don't know why, ya I friendly what haha maybe you might think I'm not just because of my face, ya you guys might think my face look like I'm arrogant but FYI I'm not okay! If you wanna get to know me, just say like hey, hi or maybe just call my name leana or farah, we can be like close friend ya sure I'm not too choosy. Okay now I feel like something wrong happen to myself but I don't know what's that. Can you tell me? Ya I have no idea, blur and blur. I'm boring to the max, nak buat apa oiii. BORING BORING BORING! Lets have some fun and play some stupid game, wanna join me? Yeah sure but how? Hahaha stupid, joking. Today is the bored night ever, I never felt like this. This is so ridiculous. Nak buat apa, nak buat apa. Update blog? Done. Facebook? Done. Twitter? Done. Skype? Also done. Yahoo messenger? Done. What else? Ya bored. Okaylah I think the best thing I can do is sleep. Ya my bed is calling me, farah farah come to me hahaha BYEEE

My everything

2011-08-19T09:20:00.000-07:00

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just... I don't even know
Just listen…

You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

Aviation - You Were My Everything

Classmates

2011-08-19T08:18:00.001-07:00

First of all, I wanna say you guys are the best lah weh. Always make me laugh, make me happy with you guys. Stupid evil laugh, stupid joke but I had so much fun with you guys, but tak semua yang okaylah. Ada certain yang tak okay, but do I look like I care, just ignore them. If you feel like I can't be your friend or not being nice to you so back off, I don't need you in my life, I already have my awesome friends, right buddy? Everything we do together, through all the pain and the happiness. But bukan semua okay like we plan right. Hmm yeah even close macam mana pun, backstabber still ada nak buat macam mana, thats a normal thing, we just have to ignore and just have fun. Biasalah mulut orang kita takkan boleh tutup sampai bila bila pun kan even sampai mati. Tu mulut orang, just biarkan asalkan kita HAPPY :D Oh ya this year rasa macam lain sikit kalau nak compare to last year or last two years, I'm getting close with them, you guys awesome you know, I hope kita okay macam ni sampai bila bila, ya memanglah bila dah habis sekolah semua buat hal masing masing but doesn't mean kita dah takboleh contact with each other right? Haha cerita macam dah habis sekolah padahal ada lagi one more year. Okaylah I think thats all for today, hope you guys enjoy. DAAAAAA

Confused

2011-08-19T02:43:00.000-07:00

Me oh me! I'm confused, I don't know how to explain, confused. Its hard for me to explain, its so complicated, I'm confused what exactly I want from you actually. I DON'T KNOW!

Do you remember of this song?

2011-08-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing,
When the wheel stop spinning cause we don't
Know where we're going
And here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
All to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her eyes on me.
Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me.

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we've been talkin' and in a few
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of
America and I've been tryin' to think for weeks of
All the ways to ask you, And now
I've brought you to the place, Where I've
Poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
Reasons, To offer it to you
I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and eve

FM Static - Moment Of Truth

Me and you

2011-08-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

You asked me if you was handsome, I said no.

You asked me if you was cute, I said no.

You asked me if you was fat, I said no.

You asked me if you was big, I said no.

You asked me if you walked away I would cry or no, I said no.

You are not big or fat, but the big and fat is your heart.

I wouldn't cry if you walked away but I will die

Puasa oh puasa

2011-08-18T06:50:00.000-07:00

First week,
First day puasa macam excited gila sebab boleh puasa tapi tak seronok sangat sebab tak macam sebelum ni, berbuka puasa ramai ramai time hari pertama. Second day tu pandai pandai kau sendirilah haha. First week puasa ibu masak sedap sedap, every day different lauk, macam macam lah yummy minta je apa yang nak makan sure dapatlah haha kesianlah katanya, setahun sekali bukan selalu kan haha.

Second week,
Okay now masuk second week pula, okay dah start second week biasalah malas ibu mula lah datang, start lah berbuka kat kedai hmm confirm lah tak sesedap masakan ibu saya, ya dak? Haha kalau makan kedai apa lagi yang boleh di order sure lah chicken chop apa lagi yang sedap, takda kot. Minta nasi goreng ayam tapi macam bukan nasi goreng ayam haih pergi jauh jauh sampai kat Shah Alam tapi kedai makan macam boleh jumpa kat Kg. Baru, tapi takpa lah redha sebab sebenarnya kedai yang ayah nak pergi tu tutup pula alahai sedihnya hati, berbuka lah dengan makanan yang tidak berapa enak dan dengan hati yang lara, apa lah nasibku ini :'( haha.

Third week,
Now third week, baru hari yang keempat tapi kalau boleh semua hari kitorang berbuka di luar tak buka kat rumah haha. Biasalah sikap malas untuk memasak makin menjadi jadi lah haha baru minggu yang ketiga tidak sabar rasanya hatiku untuk beraya, "balik kampung ohh ohhh balik kampung, hati riang" HAHAHA tapi takda kampung pun actually, kampung pun dekat kat klang, kira bukan kampung sangatlah tu kan, perjalanan pun haih jauh sangatlah sampai tiga ke empat jam hahaha. Okay hari ini dah masuk hari yang kelima iaitu jumaat, ayah tak balik harini so berbuka lah sendiri dengan ibu semua, pergi bazaar haha kelakar gila, hujan lah haih but I had so much fun haha sure pelik kan. Nasi kukus I can't wait to eat you, here I come nyummm xD Walawehhh the Nasi Kukus the best ever, nice one. This is my first time thats why I'm so excited padahal nasi kukus je pun haha thats a simple food and nice. You must taste it! Okay today for the first time aku makan "ayam penyet" haha sound quite funny right haha. Tapi sedap doh, perghh memang terbaiklah haha Okay today sunday. Lagi satu jam lebih dah nak masuk minggu yang terakhir. Cepatnya masa berlalu, orang kata dah nak akhir zaman, perasaaan takut di dalam hati semakin membuak buak (taktahu betul ke tak) Iman belum cukup, wahai manusia sekalian, banyak banyak kanlah bertaubat dan membuat amalan mulia. Okay we enter to week 4, the last week for this month.

Fourth week,
Kita tunggu hari esoknya, selama malam! TUNGGU YA. Yeay atlast sampai dah minggu yang berikutnya haha padahal dah hari rabu pun hehe. Sorry sebab lambat update tu pun if korang follow my blog lah. Okay this week takboleh puasa sbb adalah excuse well biasalah perempuan, faham faham sendiri lah okay. Okay so yesterday is tuesday, I went to pavilion to buy some stuff, yeah atlast I found my varsity jacket at PULL AND BEAR, atlast. I've been waiting for a long time yo, can't wait to have it yeay :D Okay so time tengah jalan jalan suddenly dapat incoming call, my uncle call my dad. Dia cakap my aunt baru je passed away, kitorang pun apa lagi kelam kabutlah. Terus pergi hospital ampang then after settle kan semua benda, bawak pergi ke port dickson sbb rumah dia kat sana. Alhamdulillah tadi dah sempat kebumikan. Okaylah I'm exhausted. Thats all for today, DAAAA

Bersambung........

Missing you

2011-08-18T02:48:00.001-07:00

I miss the very first time we met, first time you hugged me, I miss the old you. I want you to change because I really love you, you're the one who always with me no matter what happen, you always make me smile and make me feel loved. Without you my world is empty. While many people said I did not fit with you, but I do not care because I know you better than they know you. I know you can change and I will always support you from behind. Please forgive me because I always hurting you, you are such a nice boy and I really appreciate that. But I'm so sorry because I always make you sad, disappointed and leave you but I don't mean it. Actually its hard for me to let you go but I have to. I don't want to lose you, I want you to stay with me until forever. You sacrifice a lot for me and I want you to know that I appreciate everything that you did for me, you're such a great boy for me, you are not just part of my life but you are my life. I hope you will always be with me no matter what happen. No one can you replace you, things will never be the same without you, I miss your love so much, it's hard for me to say goodbye that's why I treat you like this like right now, we're not in a relationship but we act like we're in a relationship, I want you always with me.I never meant to hurt you, I'm so sorry. My world is nothing without you my dear! Please don't substitute my place with another woman, I didn't mean to leave you and let you waiting for me. But I'm just not willing to see you with another woman, do things that should you do with me. I want you to know that I love you and will always love you. I wish we can be together again!

Love,
Farah Leana

Hello I'm back

2011-05-21T01:06:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time I didn't visit my blogger hahaha lama juga kan. Miss my blog btw but I know that my blog didn't miss me bcause they dont know what is it mean, they're not human. And I know I'm not stupid haha. How're you guys? I'm good as usual, its okay if you didn't ask about me but I just wanna let you know haha. Its been a long time I didn't write something new about my life sorry I can't speak in english very well but I've tried my best to speak and write in english. Hmm so far my life is good but smtimes hmm you know right not everything success like we've plan, this year Imma form 4 student, next year spm doh :( Jyeah I have to study so hard bcause most people said that spm is very tough hmm I have no idea. Thats what people said I just wait till my time coming. Its been a long time I didn't meet with my old friends, lama tak lepak lepak miss you guys, now I'm fucking busy with my studies I having examination this week for mid year sekejap je dah nak akhir tahu kan. Raya? Hmm this year raya without my aunt takdapat makan sedap sedap dah, no one can cook like my aunt do okay! Okaylah thats all, thanks for reading but tu pun if you guys read lah kan hehe. LOL <3

Logan Lerman

2010-12-20T06:15:00.001-08:00

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2010-12-18T00:34:00.000-08:00

Confused and give up, I wanna move on and change Im not the one that you can treat like a rubbish, I have a feeling Im just human being, GTH.

Boy with tears and his cute face

2010-11-12T09:12:00.000-08:00

I do not know why lately I always see the face of my boyfriend and think he is very cute,before this tak sangat but still cute as usual hehe.Love you babe thanks cause always make me happy and can see your cute face everyday but Im cuter than you lah hehe!

Its all about us, your song

2010-11-10T06:18:00.000-08:00

NEVER BE THE SAME BY RED

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE BY CAPRICE FEAT NIK IRFAN

MOMENT OF THE TRUTH BY FM STATIC

LIVIN' ON A PRAYER BY BON JOVI

SERIBU TAHUN BY IMRAN AJMAIN

HEY BABY, HERE'S THE SONG THAT YOU WANTED BY BLESS THE FALL

PATIENCE BY GUNS N ROSES

WISH YOU WERE HERE BY PINK FLOYD

Guitar oh Gitarre, kann schöne Gitarre

2010-11-10T05:35:00.000-08:00

During my birthday last year, my parents gave me guitar since I've been wanting to play guitar, but after several weeks of guitar that was rewarded by my parents, I let it just like I do not appreciate their gift, now I have been aware of it, I tried and determined to learn to play guitar than anyone I know, FOR THOSE WHO KNOW HOW TO PLAY GUITAR I NEED YOUR HELP , thanks to my parents I love you so much

Holidaysssss

2010-11-10T05:12:00.000-08:00

Holidays is coming ! Now I'm not thinking about school for a while, because the holiday has been transformed in the near future, I can not wait to leave, leave leave leave, I hope I enjoy the holidays this year unlike in previous years haha I can not wait to leave and eat wind with my family and my relatives, as in previous years many of us go on holiday together, i had so much fun, so to guys enjoy your holidays and cherish hehe <3

Tired of this life

2010-11-10T05:07:00.000-08:00

Why should everyone want to blame me even though I've tried the best, why people like to say I was not even my best efforts I've tried, why do people never think about my feelings and what I feel, whether I was not important in their lives? why is everyone always blaming me even though I was innocent, why all the people are still defending those who have hurt me and continues to hurt me? No one understand me and no one know how I feel! think think and ponder musing

Love

2010-11-09T19:20:00.001-08:00

You asked me whose life was more important - yours or mine and i answered mine
You walked away angry and not knowing that you are my life
Someday someone might come into your life and love you
the way you've always wanted.if your someday was yesterday ,
learn.if your someday tmrw,hope.if your someday is today,cherish
GIRL CAN FORGIVE BUT CANT FORGET BOY CAN FORGET BUT CANT FORGIVE

Seek forgiveness

2010-11-08T22:47:00.000-08:00

Its hard to trust people nowadays,people nowadays like to condemn other people they do not realize what they already do and always blame others but we're just human being and always make mistakes thats a normal thing in our life, yeah no one perfect so take me for who I am.I seek your forgiveness I'm sorry and I really mean it,so to all who know me, I want to apologize <3

Ich liebe dich großer Kopf

2010-11-07T22:59:00.000-08:00

Muhd Harith Mustaffa the one who always make me happy and feel loved,thanks for make me happy sayang,you're the one who I love the most,being your girl is the great thing I ever had,although always be angry,but I really love you,I never thought that I will be with you during this,thanks harith love you

D'river Janda Baik Highland , Pahang

2010-11-07T22:55:00.001-08:00

First day,
Bertolak pergi janda baik around 10 am then sampai pukul 1130 am,sampai je dekat sana pasang khemah then check in chalet,after that letak semua barang dalam khemah then tukar baju mandi sungai bila dah petang,malam pula buat bbq ikan then makan makan pukul texting with harith 530 tido

second day,
Pukul 730 bangun tido but certain certain je yang bangun tido tak semua,excercise poco poco dance with all my cousin then bila petang mandi sungai with all my cousin and all my autie actually not all my cousin and my autie lah hehe malam malam as usual buat bonfire and bbq my uncle yang bakar ikan and kerang tu semua thanks to all my uncle and my autie , that night hujan lebat gila until my kila's tent basah
,kitorg lap lap semua then sleep

last day,
Around 9 smthg bangun tido breakfast tukar baju then mandi sungai until 1 smthg
after that we pick up all the stuff and get ready to go back to kl, many activities we make there, thanks love

Mein Leben

2010-11-07T22:52:00.001-08:00

First of all I wanted to introduce myself,my name Nur Farah Leana and I was fifteen years old,I have a boyfriend named Muhd Harith Mustaffa I love him so much and I would not leave him,I just finished PMR examinations and Im so happy I hope I can get a good result for PMR I dont wanna hurt my parents and my family,I want them to be proud of me,they're very important in my life and Im very dear to them,I cant live without them <3